Something

2 years ago, before she moved away

just found this message on 'saved item' in my phone.

 fuckyeaaa, i really really miss my-best-friend-i've-ever-had so bad. fufufu :<

Wanna Cry So Much

You’re still my friend. Don’t worry about tomorrow. You’ll always be my friend. Even you really fuckin  hate me and don’t consider me as your friend, now. But one day, when everything seems to go wrong, just call me. 

I’ll help you, as best as I could ;;)

My Family

My grandparents (from my mom) have 5 son and 5 daughter. My mother is the 6^th child, so i have 3 aunts and 6 uncles. My grandparents have 23 grandchilds, 3 from first child, 5 from second child, 3 from third child, 2 from fourth child, 2 from fifth child, 2 from sixth child that are me and my sister, 2 from seventh child, 1 from eighth child, 2 from ninth child and 2 from the last child. So i have 9 nephews and 13 nieces. WOW!

Grandparents's children

Grandpa and grandma

I've never had the chance to meet my grandpa as he passed away before i was even born. But from what i've heard from my mom, he was a really honourable policeman, but first-and-foremost- father to his children  :>

Mommy and grandma

She has virtually no health problem  at her age (almost) 70. Amazing!

all my family

i'm posing in the most left bytheway:3

my aunty 

little nephew and nieces

me, mommy and my sista

Mommy. she's so gawl you know *.*

So, where’s my dad? My dad isn't here because he's now working on Tourism in Abu Dhabi for (maybe) 2 years. And you know that i rarely take a pictures together with him.  fufufu

Dad, when he worked at voyage, American Fantasy Ship

in front of the White House *.*

*second left*

The Top Boys Band, LOL – The Jakarta Post, 2000

My dad is my inspiration. He's a hard worker, that why he always become the best worker wherever he works J

Song Of The Week #2

Panic! At The Disco - Balad Of Monalisa

The Ballad of Mona Lisa – Panic at the Disco Song Lyrics

She paints her fingers with a close precision

He starts to notice empty bottles of gin

And takes a moment to assess the sin

She’s paid for

A lonely speaker in a conversation

Her words are spinning through his ears again

There’s nothing wrong with just a taste of what you’ve paid for

Say what you mean

Tell me I’m right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign

I want to believe

Woah, Mona Lisa,

You’re guaranteed to run this town

Woah, Mona Lisa,

I’d pay to see you frown

He senses something, call it desperation

Another dollar, another day

And if she had the proper words to say,

She would tell him

But she’d have nothing left to sell him

Say what you mean

Tell me I’m right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign

I want to believe

Woah, Mona Lisa,

You’re guaranteed to run this town

Woah, Mona Lisa,

I’d pay to see you frown

Mona Lisa, wear me out

Pleased to please Ya

Mona Lisa, wear me out

Say what you mean

Tell me I’m right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign

I want to believe

Woah, Mona Lisa,

You’re guaranteed to run this town

Woah, Mona Lisa,

I’d pay to see you frown

Say what you mean

Tell me I’m right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign

I want to believe

There’s nothing wrong with just a taste of what you’ve paid for

Behind That Smile

“I put on a smile and say i’m fine and try to hide all sadness i feel inside. But when i’m alone the tears starts to flow and i can no longer hold them inside. Right now, all i need is someone to tell me that everything will be okay”.

You know those moments when you want to cry and hug someone, but can’t do either because you don’t wanna let yourself break down? The moment when you’re feeling so alone? And everything is hurting you? That you feel so helpless? The only thoughts that are in your head are negative and it makes you feel totally alone, like you don’t mean anything to anyone. All you want to do is tell someone how you feel, but you don’t  want their pity, and even if you could tell someone, nothing would come out right. You don’t want to laugh or smile, or whine, or argue, or even be difficult, you just want to go to bed and cry and hope this feeling passes, and sometimes it does, but it always seems to come back. You feel like you will probably search your whole life for that one person that you can totally trust that you can love forever, who will never ever hurt you. But you know somewhere deep down that you’ll probably never find  him/her. He/she probably doesn’t even exist, so you just give up, you won’t so desperately to be alone, but at the same time you fear it so much.

Ladies Night

i had a-supa-dupa-fun-night wif my gals ♥

mutia , sekar , tria , linda , agni , titin and inas

We were nonbar (watched Indonesian football match vs Vietnam) in Hill Man – it’s a pretty good recommended place to hang out wif your friends, I think.

goal!!!!! 2-0 for Indonesia (Indonesia won)

Yeaaay! They mad my day. Love you all :*

If you’re single, there always one thing you should take wif your Saturday Night, your friend! *talk to every single people* J

*.*

Just found and watched this video on youtube. 

How cutie they are *.*

'I AM THE BEST' - 2Ne1

I do like what is shown when they tear up the place with baseball bats

my favorite one *.*

SO DAMN CUTE!!!!!!!!! 

THEY LOOK LIKE DOLLS RIGHT? *.*

Miss My High School Moment

Since i was graduated from high school, me and my friends will be on our own now starting collage and right now, i'm surely miss them all. It’s pretty bad.

I miss walked down the halls, that moment when i get bored in class then went to canteen just to bought some snack. Had a break then went to warung simak to bought nasi kucing. The skipped class and came to school late. The laughter and jokes shared with friends.

XA on present-Hip Hip Hura

Happy Puppy - with Xl IPS 2

Bhissak Hiking Association

2010-Mount Merapi, 2 month before eruption  

ALAY :))

Celebrate our graduation XII IPS 1- PATBHE 011 LULUS 100 %

 PURNA SISWA SMA N 4 Yogyakarta - XII IPS 1

Hell yeah.... I miss my high school so much. I mean, that moment when i was there, not the homework or the teacher :B

INDONESIA BISA!

Logo of Sea Games 2011

Indonesia Bisa!

Me :/

Well... The success of this SEA Games event is in our hands, yours, mine and every Indonesian citizens. We, the Indonesian, need to 'work' for this. If we truly believe that we are capable of makin this a reality, then we will make it a reality. Once again, we would like to wish all Indonesian athletes all the best throughout the competition! We really hope that you give your best for Indonesia.

Let us rise together and wave the Red and White Flag with pride at the SEA Games XXVI

Ayo! Indonesia Bisa! 

You

Dear you,

     Thank you for makin me smile today. You never know how much a simple text can turn my whole day into a smile. Thank you for the encouraging words, for your kindness, for the silly and fun talk, for the friendship, and for everything and most of all for just being you. I love how even though you so far away you still make me smile. Well.... you’re the reason i'm smilin alot lately. It’s amazing how all this can be happening. I mean, my whole life is fallin apart and yet, every time I talk to you, I stop feelin sorry for myself, and I begin to smile :>

Feeling Inside

"We're so close, yet so far....

It's tearing me apart....

What I would do to be there with you?"

this song perfectly describes how i feel raight now, by the way

My Bad

I know that i have this problem for a long time. Sometimes, i just can't seem to cool down and i get angry very easily. At times, every little thing just ticks me off makin me very, very angry so angry that i am capable to harming people. However, i’ve been tryin to control my anger but when i do, i feel a tightness around my heart and feeling faint too. There are so many times i wished i could just kill whoever it was who irritated me (sounds crazy right?). When i get angry, it doesn't really matter who you are. I know that i'm capable of violence but i can’t do this to other people -_-

Before i write this post, i saw a movie by the way and there was a character-i-guess-you-could-call "angry" and "annoying" and i thought, "Hell yeah… that could be what other people see me as sometimes..."

Honestly, i think it's affecting my life in a serious way. Sometimes, i feel like this horrible person that people think angers quickly. I really want to stop being that s*hit. How should i really go about it? I've tried almost everything already, guys...

TRULY FRIEND

Bestfriend, for me, is a friend who always listens when i want to share my problems or feelings. A good friend is a good listener, not a good speaker. She is  not only wants to share her feelings, but also ready to listen to me.

A good friend is good companion. She is always accompanying me in happy and sad situations.

A good friend also can cheer me up when i am down and in trouble. She doesn’t want me to do anything she wants, instead, she will do what is useful for me.

A good friend will also give feedback and reminding advice when i make mistakes. When i need a helping hand, she always  be there, and give me some do’s and don’ts, so i can be tough in solving my problems. Then i called her a good adviser

She can say no when she thinks i don’t do the right thing, then give me another piece of advice which is better for me. She wants and able to tell me if i don’t wear the right color for my clothes, or if there is something wrong with my face, and tell a truth when i stand in a lie.

I am a shy person, so i don’t usually talk to all people about my problems. That’s why she always be a place to share my feelings with.

Sometimes, i have problems in remembering somethin. Therefore, i need her who could remind me when i forget things. She always be a good reminder.

The friend will supply help with no expectation of return. He or she will not ask a return if you ask for help, but a good friend always does something sincerely.

Everyone makes mistakes, me either. Then, she always understands if i make mistakes. She will accept my apology even before i apologize.

 my truly friend:

how i really miss that moment :'>

you-will-always-be-my-bestfriend-forever. NADIA INDRIYANI ;))

P.S: let's meet me up soon, we haven’t meet yet about a year :(

I'm Not a Stranger to Love

I see people so desperate, lost and sad over what is supposed to be so great. I don't get it. I have alot of people in my life and when i cry prolonged  tears i'll be damned if it's over a break up. What i or he feels today is just an emotion and thought. Both our emotions and thoughts change often. Nothing in a relationship is ever set in stone. Nothing is mean to be or to be taken for granted.

So, to those desperate for love....Oh please guys....Get on with it already.

No one needs anyone but themselves. i mean.. love yourself first. I know i don't need to be "with" someone but i think it might be nice to find someone special. Havin a relationship will be special when you both find each other. It can be a hard road, but somewhere along the way that special someone must be there. When the time is right :))

He is so Damn Funny - TO FORGET OR NOT TO

SORRY CUY, THIS POST HAS BEEN DELETED.

Song of The Day

"Being Human is the Most Terrible Loneliness in the Universe"

Lyrics | Simple Plan lyrics - Astronaut lyrics


this song has described my feelings exactly and taught me that:
"Being alone is worst than pain"

So Near but Far Away

Through the years of silence i began to think I hated you. And all those hours you would scream i began to think i hated you. Living with you but never talking to you made me think i hated you. You were never there for anything. And i hated you for it. I had to realize that you would never be there. I hated knowing that although you were only in the other room, a few feet away from me, we still haven't spoken in weeks. I hated that people never knew you.

I don't ever remember you hugging me, kissing me, or saying "I love you" ever in my life. I thought it was all my fault. Then i realized that there's nothing wrong with me, so i started to blame you.

But it wasn't your fault.

I understand that you just are the way you are. It's okay. There's nothing wrong with you. All those years i thought i hated you, i really hated myself for not being close to you. I hated the silence, and the screaming, and the distance. And i still do. I'll never stop hating it. I'll never stop hating everything that we are.

but, i always remember the best advice you ever gave to me: 

"Dont waste time worry about the small things, you will miss out in the best things"

well, i do miss you right now.................

Random Feeling

i don't know why i feel so terrible today. Like i'm not kinda in a good mood, for no specific reason. And sometimes my favorite songs always describe how i feel . I’ll express my feelings through a song instead of actually sayin' it.

The song what describes my feeling right now: 

 Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

I Love This Hottie Guys ♥

Vin Diesel

Lookin for Vin Diesel's muscles have girls dreaming to get along with him, and guys across the world wishing to look like him. If given the desire, a lot of guys would trade their body for the lean toned body of Vin Diesel in a heartbeat! Lol

 

 

Vin Diesel in The Chronicles of Riddick

 

*i like this pose by the way :) 

No one looks like to find out what Vin Diesel does in his work outs! Without a doubt women love Vin Diesel muscles and the guys wish to look like him which makes his work out hugely searched on the internet! This is “Vin Diesel muscles“ (this is so true guys)

Taylor Lautner

So does Vin diesel, Taylor Lautner also has sixpack body and good muscles ;))

 

 

"Let's face it, I am hotter than you." - Jacob Black

if you have a chance to choose both of them being your husband, which one do you want? 

-- > I prefer the first one < --

How about you? :))